My Prayer

my prayer, is to make you see. make you believe. make you understand. make you feel. make you love. that's my prayer. I wake up to it and I sleep with it.

what if I die?

what if I die?

will you moan and cry?

will you tell me the things you never said

or leave my soul thirsty and misjudged

will you love me the way you never did 

or go on and forget the things I did 

will you say my name and remember me 

or will you only remember my misdeeds 

will you breath twice to keep me alive 

or live your life and let me die twice 

what if I die?

will you moan and cry?

will you save me from hell

or let me burn and suffer in my sins 

will you let me be your guardian angel 

or shadow my soul and make me give in 

will you be beside me when I call out 

or leave me all alone drenched in doubt 

will you always think of me and smile 

or go into the light and let my soul die 

so if I die

walk with me and don't cry

A Shadow

Its all about distance and time. Mostly distance, But we all learn to cope with it. 

Like, sometimes, even though I am so far away from 'home' I secretly imagine you standing next to me. Together, Hand in hand, but we are not close to home; somewhere far away, where I am at the moment. 

And I am so oblivious of the world and the cold around me,and the people in the street, i am just standing there staring into some store's window, imagining you in those boots, in that overcoat, or you giving directions to some confused stranger. I just smile in the cold because it feels warm. That feeling of your shadow being here with me. 

And here its only the beautiful places. I wouldn't want you to see anything else. Only beauty. Watching you smile at that beautiful lake and the leaf devoid trees surrounding it, because secretly we both know there is so much life in them and that this cold is coming to an end just like a part of a long play. And in that moment there is this overwhelming happiness that makes me cry, that my heart cannot handle and might just burst.

And that's when I feel these cold tears rolling down my cheeks. Seeing all this beauty and you in it. Its so beautiful. You are so beautiful. 

And then i cry a little more when someone calls out my name, 

and I wake up.