What do you do when your life takes
a giant leap from a once small affair to a big party? How does something so
privately amusing, become a public show? How does a hermetical, ordinary life
become so conspicuous? When do we realize that this is not what we wanted?
Recently it occurred to me that
everything I do now, which doesn't define me wholly, isn't just a phase like I
thought it would be. It was turning out to be a habit, which was eating away
the normalcy and the simplicity of my life. A habit so persistent that doing it
felt like it was there all along, and a life so fake that everything about it
screamed 'lies'.
Someone told me once or maybe I had
read it in one of those sites like thought catalogs that everything I do even
if it's for a fraction of a second, will define me my entire life. In other
words, anything I say or think or even wish, will attach itself to the long
existing chain of events that will lead to what I will be tomorrow. But it was
not something I didn't know. Any person with half the brains can put two and
two together to figure that out.
My question is; how does one go back
to basics?
