I'm still a girl

I'm still that girl

But i will keep lying

about how the heart breaks 

the lost pictures from the future

the wedding song we knew we would play

the colour of lazy summer flowers

how the sun shone on our faces 

the wars we fought and we lost

the hurt and pain is melting

merging into an awakening 

i wish my energy was otherwise spent

but each silent moment brings me there

I'm still that girl

but I do keep lying

I don't know any other way forward

I let this current sweep me onwards 

staying still takes more of me than dancing 

to the notes of an uncertain certainty 

I like it when my feet bleed 

it means I played my part flawlessly well

filling another box with memories I don't want

hiding it away like it means something

I'm still that lost girl

But lying comes so easy

this ignorance is powerful

this rock which I call home

I'm still that girl

I'll keep lying

these are the stories I'll tell myself 

to stay afloat and to stay fearless 

I'm still a girl

I'll keep lying.